Kairyuzai N Samm

Christmas Season-late post =)

2011-12-26T15:08:00.000+08:00

Jingle Bells Jingle Bells... i am still in my holiday mode but let me share with you on what my Christmas was like.=)

First of all,i would like to ask you guys,are you up for a FREE PAIR OF CONTACT LENS?

Here's one to share with you!

You can choose for 3 pair of daily contact lenses or a pair of Bi-weekly contact lens.And it is so simple,you register online,you choose daily or bi weekly contact lens preferable to your preferences and put in your mobile phone number,a SMS will be sent to you and obviously you have to go to the location which you set on where you want to pick it up.

I used mine and baobei's phone number to redeem these babies.I took bi weekly lenses.=)

My contact lenses stock~till 2016!

My company had a lucky draw on 23rd...these are the Christmas present which everyone will get,according to the number they pull out....let me put you on hold on what i got from my company Christmas lucky draw.

From our image stock supplier~

This is what i won!I dint expect it!

Crabtree and Evelyn,RM198 in their stores.

Inside

The "toys"

Time for baobei's present!I got Domo!!DomoDomoDomo.(been bugging her to get me one for months)

I am super DoMo!Rawrrr

I got a Swaroski pen too as a present from Baobei.Gonna sign my cheques with this baby!

Candy in the Christmas socks!

On Christmas day=Shopping day!

My dinner on Christmas

My breakfast after Christmas

Peppermint sticks!I have the whole stock to myself for a year.

Went to facial at Model Slimz,Subang.They did a great job

Waiting like a boss for.....

My shepard pie!Baobei cooked for me! =)

Came out burnt for the Cheese got burnt.Recomend if you dont put cheese on top.

After scraping out the cheese,lets eat!!

Gonna go to work.Toodles.

Random Reminisce

2011-12-20T11:25:00.000+08:00

Hey there!

Started your shopping?But i know i did.Damn well i did! MNG was having sale but there was nothing interesting for me to buy.Bought a shirt only at the end and also 2 working shirts.Life is good,chilling till New Year comes then its busy week again in the office.

By the way,pictures!!!

Made by my baobei.Margarita babeh!We had a BBQ at Jamie's apartment at Marc Residence on last Saturday..So convient,KLCC will be like a second home if i were to stay there.

Zouk nite .Wippie!! On last last Saturday.LoL.

Pavilion full of shoppers mostly buying Gucci.By the way,why dint i go and check the sale at Gucci?Argh...i realized it now!

Mr Bear,are you hungry?

He/She allowed me to take a pic with he/she~So cute man!

Baobei's turn

OHHH~~Christmas tree ohhhh *tree falls down on her* LOL

Presenting,the poser!

Its shopping season,have you got what you wanted?

LOL.

BTW,my company is having a lucky draw this Friday.I am very Cure-Ri-ouS~~
And this Saturday having Karaoke session~!
WHAT ABOUT SUNDAY?!
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx We havent plan anything yet!Shitzzz!!
Monday having a facial appointment at Subang.Hehehehe
Tuesday to Friday my work resumes as normal.

Gotta get back to work.P/S:Grab these month's magazine and read.XD
Catcha later~!

The piece in the box of chocolates

2011-12-18T04:26:00.000+08:00

Life is like a box of chocolate they say.
I see life full of surprises and obstacles.
I must overcome it,i must.
For a future for US.

But one thing makes me want to explode,
It is when role playing comes in.
I like a girl,and not a guy.
So stop pretending like one
Otherwise,there will be a gap after a long period of time.

I am not stopping anyone on their freedom,
Just that my views are different than others.
I do not see a tomboy as a guy,I see them as a girl.
I do not treat them as a guy either,because i know inside they are not one.
If i were to want a guy,i would be with a guy by now.
So just let me have in my own mind that i am with a girl and not a "guy"
Because to me you are not but i do not refrain you from viewing yourself as one.
I do not buy ego and "guy" responsiblities,Lets share it together.

I want to have a future with you,
I want to be the one to hold you when you are sick,sad,happy,overjoyed.
I want to share the burden with you,I want to feel what you feel.
I do not want you to feel that you are all alone,
Because this is US and not U.

I want to love you till the day one of us leave this mortal world.

Nov-Dec post

2011-12-12T21:34:00.001+08:00

Hey there!

I know i have disappeared for a month but i was pretty busy and since today it's Selangor public holiday,i would like to take the chance to update my blog before my busy schedule tomorrow.

I just came back from Thailand on the 7th and on the 7th went over to Sunway Giza to eat Tao,to celebrate baobei's mum's birthday.

Thailand was very cold,my nose bothered me and so did my eyes.Allergy on dust and the weather in the morning can reach till 18.6 Celsius.Went over to Chiang Rai,Chiang Mai, Laos's border.It was fun and great,a good rest indeed from city life but i do not think i can survive for i have lived with city life for the past 21 years of my life.I'll upload few pictures,not all but the full version of the picture can be found at the link below:

Part 1:

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150414094042815.364239.561742814&type=1&l=c8371b912e

Part 2:

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150414486072815.364282.561742814&type=1&l=ce83503c30

Went back to work on the 8th and pretty boring for not much projects coming in but i guess surely i will be busy tomorrow since Christmas,New Year,Chinese New Year,etc coming up.Hands full surely.Working on the marketing team,where is totally not my genre of study or interest but getting to work in a advertising company just fulfill my dream of working in one.I get to read magazines every month without buying,doing shop surveys,and i even get to go to press releases.Its rather stressful when new things come in and i do not know how to do it but thank god i have great helpful colleagues and not snobs.I am so thankful for that.

Went clubbing at Zouk Velvet.Kinda like it.Loads of pretty chicks to see.But geez,their dance floor is pretty small.Over Zouk Phuture,loads of foreigner but happening too.

And one thing i would like to share,the next day after clubbing,me and baobei went to The Street Cafe at SS15.Really loved the service and i recommend that place.They have great food, environment and super good service.Here are the pictures from The Street Cafe,SS15!

Was getting excited with the small cap.

thats the naughty grin XD

The two bittersweet couple

Her famous "mehateyyou" pig face XD

You can stick sticky notes on their wall!

Thats just one part of it.

Try being scary or never trying.

Saba set

Beef Set

What suprised us was that they ask to take a picture and also give us one.=) .Plus RM10 voucher for the next visit!

My little naughty hand did it.Oppsss...

Her stupid answer.WTHWTHWTF

Ugly snapshot~ngak ngak ngak

Catcha later~=)

frustration

2011-11-10T20:16:00.003+08:00

My baobei cooked breakfast for Sunday-mine

My baobei cooked breakfast for Sunday-hers

My daily breakfast before going to work.

Finger and finger candy

Body parts candy!

Eye candy.Gruesome!!

Hey there bloggie.

I know i have not blogged for such a long time,do forgive me for i have been working hard till the wee hours to make a comfortable life for us both in the future.

Life is super busy and sometimes i do feel down.I am human after all.

Sometimes we strive so hard to do something but that is the best we can do and there is no way to in getting more of the income.Everyday when i get back home all i think is will this effect my relationship,will this get me to somewhere.It is really frustrating when you haven't figured your life out yet.

I just feel very frustrated,down and also self disconnected lately.But how long can i pretend to smile till i cant.I just want a corner for myself,yes i am emotional but i am human after all,with feelings.

I need to get a smoke.I just need to stop thinking.I need to shut down.

Random.Work.Eat.Play.Shop.Work

2011-10-17T21:50:00.001+08:00

I know i had not been updating much.I have reasons.And work is one,sleeping is second and going out is third.I guess its a solid reason for being absent from my blog for so long.

I have just gotten off from from work.My work starts at 9am and ends sometimes nearly 10pm and from my collegues they says there are later days where they stayed up till 1-3am.Well,welcome to the media world.So far i like what i am doing and i can flip through many magazines for FREE.I am currently in charge for Bosch home appliances for now but i will be handed a few other clients like Hyundai,Ace Insurance and Citizen as told from my directors(when i get the to hand Bosch rightly).

Working is sometimes tiring when you need to run from upstairs-the marketing team to downstairs to the creative team.I am responsible in handling my clients advertisements and briefing the creative team what to do plus not forgetting going out to meet clients.

My main target now is to show what i am made of,to prove that i am person who does what they say in their resume but so far still struggling to catch up with new things but i am grateful that i have helpful collegues and my directors to guide me and teach but to show me how to do the things right.So far,i am pretty proud of myself for able to pick things up fast and sometimes able to perform task(minor ones)without asking and also annoy people with my questions.

Here are some pics i have updated.I know its little but my job takes lots of my time.But there is always Saturdays(if there is nothing urgent) and Sundays to be spent with my girlfriend.She drives me everyday to work and picks me up everyday.She's very lovely and caring.

UPDATES.

Cowboy Town@A Famosa Mallaca.Taken by Iphone 3Gs

2 weeks ago before starting work.Shopping day.

On Sunday.At Paddington House of Pancakes-Banana+Coconut (Baobei's pancake)

Was too excited like crazy because it was so cute

Mine-Strawberry and Peach.Baobei said mine was nicer.

Too SUPER EXCITED.Cant wait to gobble.See that face?That's pure excitement plus joy.

San Remo 8 minutes pasta =)

Outcome from shopping-Padini Authentic Jacket.

Outcome from shopping.Seed.

First day of work

Q Bean at 1Utama-Oreo (Baobei's)

Q Bean 1Utama (Peanut)has chocolate topping.Mine.

My stupiak.

THE END.see you soon.

Facial+BBQ+Shopping outing.

2011-10-03T13:05:00.000+08:00

Went over to Taipan Beauty Century to do my facial after shopping at Shah Alam where i bought two jackets , one blazer , five formal wear and two going out casual wear collar shirts.Was raining like cats and dogs.Pfftt....

Went over to Beauty Century,USJ Taipan.It was my first time doing facial and i was scared after hearing loads of things about how painful the extraction is and it was no joke,it was painful but bearable. First i went into their room,being a first timer i did not know what to do.Whether to take off your bra or not , how to wear that cloth they give you,what was coming , etc.

Me and baobei bought their facial voucher for RM29.90 per person where they provide FREE shoulder massage,facial plus Free EYE,LIP,FACE mask worth RM590 from WeBuy.com

I asked the girl how do i wear their cloth because there was a cloth silk looked like a towel.And another was like a long tube dress.I did not know which goes on which far more i am confused because most of them are Chinese speaking workers.

The girls over there started laughing and i got a little offended with the laugh and i told her it was my first time so it makes sense on what i do not know.She took the towel looking silk and threw to her colleague telling in Chinese , simple Chinese which i could catch up a little which says "Why is this cloth here?,"

In my mind "no wonder i did not know how to wear the cloth,"

~~KNSWTFWTHFML~~

I heard a knock on my door asking whether they can come in and i said yes.It was the masseur who was going to give me my shoulder massage.She sounded Indonesian and called me darling and i liked her.I did not know she wanted me to sit,lie on my tummy or my back because i have no experience in this.First timer kay,gimme a break!

She was gentle,soft spoken and did a very good job.I felt so relax and people who know me,i have shoulder and back problems where if i sit too long , my back hurts and so as my shoulder.The only way for me not to get the pain is to lie down and keep turning every hour or half hour.

After the massage,i waited for 10-20 minutes,i felt it was kind of a long wait.The beautician came in cleansed, scrubbed and she said that she is going to apply something called Enzyme(i dont know it is correct but sounded like that) to remove the dead cells and it is to be applied for five minutes and then she left leaving me alone again.I had nothing to do so i just thought why not i just count till 5 minutes.Counting the seconds and till i reached till 4 minutes the beautician came in.

She covered my eyes with a tissue because she had to on the light which is very bright.And she said it will hurt because she is about to start the extraction.Forehead was bearable. Cheeks and chin and near the eye rings was kinda of a ouch but i still could take it.Then she said the nose part is gonna hurt-The nose.I though come on,pinching my nose was not gonna hurt like she said.But i was SUPER DEAD WRONG. I felt something sharp , it was like poking and it hurt.I just took the pain as an inspiration of "if i cant bear this,how about the tattoo i am planning to get" and when it was over she took off my eye patch and a stream of tear rolled down.I did not know how the tears came when she opened the eye patch.I was like wow , i did not know!

Then she applied i do not know what and then washed it off .Told me to lie on my tummy.I was like "huh?got second massage?Suddenly she started doing what those girls in saloon do those piak piak piak on your back,pretty loud sound and she accidentally or maybe too over enjoying doing it till my ear was not spared. FUCK.

Then she said okay all done and i lied down back again.The she said finish.I was huh? Then ? She said you can wear back your clothes.Its either i have a blur case problem or she could not just say okay everything is done,you can wear your clothes back now.KNS.They gave me and baobei both each of this serum.

Complimentary gift from Beauty Century,Taipan.Did my facial there.

Overall i am not satisfied with the service given by the beautician because :

1.They wanted to go back early cutting my time by one hour.

2.Did not provide mask for me.I had a eye , lip and face mask worth RM590 but they did not do it because they said we were late.

3.Although we were late,it is not the way to treat your customers.You will lose customers this way than getting them to come back.

Went over to Han Woo Ri Korean BBQ Restaurant at Taipan too where we purchased their voucher for RM49 per person.Unlimited Side Dish Refill and one rib per person.I was satisfied with their service but i am not a fan for Korean food.It taste..its just not my cup of tea mainly Kimchi and the rest of the vegetables.I just like their BBQ stuff.Pics below.

bbq pork

my plate.messy.yes

Korean BBQ side dishes.Unlimited refill.12 side dishes if am not mistaken.

Korean BBQ side dishes.Unlimited refill.but not the BBQ pork

Samm To de stupid

They cooked for us,

Korean BBQ side dishes.Unlimited refill

Korean BBQ side dishes.Unlimited refill.Pancake

Thats the warp up.
=)
Off to cook something for myself.Hungry ><"

New Job + Veneeze at Jaya One.

2011-09-30T11:11:00.001+08:00

After finishing my interview at Solaris at Homefinder magazine , me and baby got our breakfast at The Meat Expert at Sri Hartamas. For me,it was too salty.But loved the bread and sausage.

The Meat Expert at Sri Hartamas - Breakfast set included bacon,ham,cheese sausage , mini hot dog, two benjo egg , bread and butter and baked beans.

temporary working bag

love the view of my shoes/heels

mini lemon biscuit

everybody will have to start one day =)

I was starving in the car and ate few of baby's biscuit.Notice the mini lemon? Super small ! Then after being grumpy because i was hungry we went over to Veneeze Jaya One. Recommended to try.We bought a voucher from WeBuy , RM16.90 for Pizza and Pasta for 3 people serving.Called Raymond to join us too.I did not take pictures(result of grumpy because hungry) but i manage to google pictures taken by Veneeze themselves at their facebook and also from google image of the food i ate at there.Dont worry,it looks exactly the same , same place and same taste okay.

carrot soup as soup of the day.RM2

pizza-i dont like it.Too simple .

Garlic Bread . Lovely . Dip it into the carrot soup.Fantastic.RM 2 ONLY

Their pasta.I remember its at thier menu with the picture which says homemade.I loved it.Was creamy and lovely.Did not snap pic because was busy eating but at least was hardworking to show you what i have ate. XD

Fried Button Mushroom.RM 2 ONLY.

Dessert . We ordered this. Hot soft donut with ice cream on top . Yummy . RM 2 ONLY.

Enviroment.

See you soon.Off for shopping mode . =)
Had a arguement on the way to Veneeze,was also the reason i did not have mood to take any pictures.Sigh.How could she say that she is not important to me.Obviously she is the most important person to me.

I just needed to know badly,and just want stability first between us.Commitment with the word US together inside and not I anymore so that ill be more secure.But you never show it all along,so how can i know?That is why i am so afraid that one day WE are not WE anymore and till now i don't know it because you are not a person who expresses.

Fuckers not marriage okay.

My Roti Pratha Cheese Beef Pizza Cooking Story : PHAILED IT.

2011-09-28T09:37:00.001+08:00

Current Mood : Nervous , Anxious , Dying , Blabbering , Camwhoring , SCARED !

Having my Espresso Frappe at Dr Cafe Coffee with the feeling of being nervous until i am getting my nervous "syndrome" which is thinking of going to the loo every 5 minutes.I am heading my ass off to an interview at Ttien Media Sdn Bhd at Solaris Mont Kiara,where they publish the magazine of Homefinder Magazine.Anxious.Applied for the position as writer over there for their editorial.I AM SO FREAKING SCARED.This is my third interview as i can recall.It was suppose to be my fifth but i rejected two interviews as Account Executive and Management Trainee Executive.I wanted something more on my field.But i am looking forward for a interview-Munchy(the biscuit) as Production Assistant.I know the job is very technical and rushing , loads of outdoor/indoor programs and events but i like this type of things.Can learn loads of things.But i am also offered a job at Mandate Advertising International Sdn Bhd as a Marketing Communication Executive.

My Espresso Freppe at Dr Cafe Coffee.Yes , i am anxious still that is why i am blogging , might cool down my nerves . Two days ago i tried making Pratha Pizza , inspired from the small kiosk at shopping malls where they use Pratha,Creepe and also that thin flour thingy where they make apam balik.Here's my try out and i PHAILED it!

Woke up in the morning feeling like P.Diddy,put on my glasses and i am gonna hit the kitchen.

(Just woke up,and no i dont care what i look like.)

I remembered to get enough meat this time .See ><.Even Lance reminded me to get meat before doing XD

My burger of the day.I am all in for MEAT!I took 3 patties , and it was too much.one is enough.

I turned behind and i was like WTFWTH , since when we had so much plastic boxes.

Must must have to make it.

one from each . Should not put Taiwan Sausage,totally made the pizza sweet and spicy.Yucks.(I am not responsible if you do not know Taiwan Sausages are not halal aka Pork.To my malay readers(if any)

My meat,all chopped up.I made a video but my camera was kinda being stupid,could not upload me taking the chopper to the meat because it was frozen.I practically keep banging till i realized i could just slice it from the sides.(I kept banging at the middle where it is frozen thinking it would break the ice at the middle XD)

Done.And i notice Ramlee burger has bones in it.Sharp hard ones.Grrr...

Look i have a Penis too but a frozen one.XD.Dont ever ask me for my penis unless you want to see it again.XD . JK.This is my taiwan sausage.Slice slice slice.No offence,its just a joke.No harm done on anybody's penis/what so ever.Just a innocent joke.

The MEAT ingredient.

Again

Roti Pratha , Cheese , mayo , garlic butter (recomended not to put,makes things too oily thats why i failed),mustard,meat.

My cheese to be sprinkled.

Frying the meat

Spread the love on to the Pratha.Do you feel my sexy love baby XD

Ingredient time

Masterpiece.

Cooking.Done.

Why i failed ?

Well i took out the Pratha too soon and out it to the plate.Realized it was too soft when i wanted to pick it up and put in the pan.Put it back in the fridge thinking that tommorow i could eat it.When i took it out,the Pratha was stuck on the plate.Had to peel the pratha out from the plate , messing things up , making my pratha torn like paper.All the meat went haywire.

The one in the pan is after i have put my pratha in the fridge and made a new one because i have too much meat.I place the pratha on the pan WITHOUT CHECKING there were two pratha sticking together.FML.Was cooking it then realized when the top was not expending like a pratha should and saw the reason why(YEAH GO AND CONTINUE LAUGHING MY DEAR).Like a normal person reaction i tried taking the extra pratha out , made my meat haywire , burned the down pratha. Sigh.Plus my garlic butter made things pretty oily for the meat till i myself could not stand the taste of the meat soaked with butter.But If i did not put the butter , i would be perfecta.And if i did open my eyes and SEE , it would be a sucess project of my pratha pizza beef cheese.Sigh.We all learn by mistake.But the thing is , pratha is too thin to be as the pizza bread.But i see those kiosk at the mall , they do it well. Got to see more.OBSERVE!!!

Okay,i am off.See you soon.

Off to my interview now . Freaking fucking super scared!!!!

Random

2011-09-25T00:24:00.003+08:00

Loving my iGoogle.

Sick like WTF

Room decorating ~

everyday motivation

500ML Hoegarden at Brussels @ Jaya One then shifted to Muse for 2 pint of Killkenny with Sherley .

Cowboy town at Mallaca A Famosa

XD .Baobei decorated the room.

Random

2011-09-13T01:17:00.002+08:00

Geez , this week i am totally occupied . Upcoming interviews and so on . Most of the company scares me for it is international , if its not , it is well known in the publishing / media company.Blessed but did not get any response yet but still busy busy busy with my own stuff .

Currently hooked on Vampire Diaries season 2 and soon coming my Season 1-7 of Two and a half Men.Helped my brother with his homework .

Surviving on the payroll of my monthly allowances and creating my online portfolio.Making a website is damn tricky.Hmmm...

I am not used staying in the house , my leg feels itchy wanting to go out .

Off to A Famosa trip on 16th,Friday . =)

See you lazy bummers later XD

Kuih Pelita-My first time doing and it ROCKED!

2011-09-07T14:04:00.005+08:00

Baobei said there is a tube and she requested me to make it since i have nothing to do at home and i wanted to do something . So here it is : Kuih Pelita , a malay cake . Down layer is pandan , and the upper is coconut milk .

The tube , there are two tubes , one white (putih as you can see and the other is green ( hijau) .They have instructions written,very easy to understand , i am just showing how i did it . And some things for you guys to avoid doing .

900 ml of coconut milk / Santan divide to two . 450ml for white and green.But i only put 700ml divided to two. Too fattening don't you think-900ml...that's kinda too much.

First i did the green because it said that we have to do the green first . So first timer , i was kinda stupid . I did not follow their instruction of 3/4 cup of sugar , that's too much and thank god i did not . Because my baobei does not like sweet things and when i finish doing it , it taste quite good although without the amount of sugar stated at the instruction.I put in 5 spoons of sugar into the coconut milk of 350ml . And stirred it . Then i poured in half of the green tube ( because the instruction said so okay)

Stir it but then i realised when it gets more hot , more gluey it gets!

This is what i mean! I panicked thinking i did it wrong and i hurried put in vanilla artificial ( because that bloody shop did not have pandan artificial taste so what the hell but i was kind of surprised that it taste like pandan , maybe they had put in pandan in the powder but not much)...look below

Spread it on the pan , takes 10 minutes to cool . Put in refrigerator .

After cooling process . It looks fugly.

The next round for the whites i did not want to screw it up so i mixed everything in this bottle . Actually its baobei's herbalife bottle which i will confess later i used it for baking or maybe not . LOL.Stir it till you feel its mixed properly.If your mum or dad has a mixer , take that and shake it like a bartender and never tell them you used it XD .

Same step BUT you do not need to put in artificial this time .

I was scared it would turn out same as the green one all gluey so i poured it in when i felt it was going to thicken up like the green one and....

I put it in the refrigerator for 10 minutes and i was dead wrong , so parts just needed the heat . So suddenly the steamer came into my mind . I should have stimmed it long time ago . The green wouldn't look fugly ! Sometimes instructions sucks , they say to stir it in the pot but the steamer works better!Trust me .

After coming out from the steamer , i put it in the refridgerator . Geez! I should steam it from the start ! *curse curse curse*

Use the knife edges to slowly cut the sides out separating the cake from the pan , lift it up slowly with your hand , peel it off like you are peeling off your nose strip.

Wahla , Kuih Pelita or Pelita cake ? Pelita cake sounds weird...hmmm..

I always get the first bite for i made it ! =) And yes i just woke up that time . XD .

Was suppose to look like the picture below ==" I did not know it needed to be wrapped with pandan leaf .

Avoid those stupid mistakes i made . Nobody's perfect and so are you . I am off to take another piece XD

Homemade Pizza Recipe-Improvise on what you got.

2011-09-07T12:53:00.003+08:00

First , i beat 3 eggs and added garlic butter (just a personal preference that i love garlic butter).Like below you can see that the garlic butter and the egg are mixed together . My garlic butter was about to finish that's why i scrambled the eggs in the garlic butter container.

I love Gardenia Bread ,the plain ones . I used to roll in like big balls and make it hard and biting into that ball i made taste so good . Well , over here , i flatten the bread like below and i spread garlic butter(you can put any type of butter which you want at the back and the front is optional) at infront and back because i do not want the back part to stick to the baking pan ,so the butter will lessen it,Baobei said using flour will help the back part to not stick on the pan. ( I had to improvise , i did not have much ingredients at that time because i just woke up and this idea was in my head .)

I used 6 slices of bread . It looks like a patch work don't it?

I had to use whatever meat that i had , so i chopped the crabstick like below , and using the peeler to peel the hotdogs.I cut the hotdog into half and peel it . Look below after this picture.

Peeling the hot dog ,or if would prefer slice but it is not sliced , fry it till it looks crispy . Be warned that it cooks very fast so get ready anytime to scoop those hot dogs out from the frying pan.Taste one , crunch and nice right ? I took my beef burger , i used one patty only , i recomend that you use more because i noticed i cant taste the meat at all . It was too little . Chop it till its like minced smoothly.I think 2 or three patty would be fine . Depends on your pan how large it is.

Spread it on the bread which you have done earlier . See , i told you it wasn't enough but i only had one patty at that time .IMPROVISE!
Pour the beaten egg on top and i forgot to mention earlier , another layer of bread to cover the minced meat .I used 6 more slices . >.<
Irish Cheddar Cheese . Optional.You could even put your normal bread cheese on top of the bread!
I sliced two slices of cheddar cheese and i sliced it from the side into small pieces like below and sprinkle them around.
Spread the fried hot dog and crab stick .Rotate the pan in a circular movement because there are plenty of egg below of the bread . Like me , i pushed that bread down a little so that the egg will be absorbed into the bread and also so that it will make the bread below being "glued" together with the top layer of bread.

I decided to steam mine because i do not have a oven, only a toaster oven so when i want it hard like a pizza , i put it in the toaster oven.I added mayonnaise (Japanese mayo because it taste better than normal Lady's Choice mayo LOL ) . Keep checking on it.Take a fork and poke it and feel the tip of the fork to know whether inside is hot . The top might look cooked but you will never know whats happening inside . Mine took around 30 -45 minutes to really cook because the egg and bread is kinda tricky.
Some of the bread will stick at the pan but its not hard to take it out .Just be careful not to tear the whole thing because you are impatient.
Wahla~Home made "pizza"
I love it but i should have gone downstairs to buy more meat!

Then after cooking my pizza , Cass called me up to go for bridesmaid dress hunting . She was searching for purple this , purple that at Mid Valley but i enjoyed it . That is me pretending to be pregnant and accused Cass of raping me XD.LOL

I found this beautiful dark red gown . My stupid baobei said it was ugly but so far , i am getting quite a hit on facebook saying its beautiful.What do you think ?

Well , good luck in the pizza making ! Hey, you don't need to follow my choice of meat , butter and mayo. Just go crazy , you will feel contented on what you have done =)

Baking Kuih Pelita now ..... XD

Simple breakfast recipe . =)

2011-09-06T11:55:00.005+08:00

These days i have been addicted in making breakfast~i am making the kitchen counter messier everyday but hey i do clean up kay.The breakfast below is made by baobei . It is simple as 123 and tasy too !

1 croissant

1 ham

1 egg

2 slices of cheddar cheese(but for cooking)

First , bake the croissant for 5-10 minutes in the toaster oven .While waiting for the croissant , fry the ham slightly for around 5-10minutes as how much fried you prefer . After frying the ham ham , your croissant is ready.Let the croissant in the toaster oven while you cook the egg , scramble it and then put in the cheese and scramble it together , i prefer my eggs a little soggy , depends on how you like your eggs .

Wahla~Ready!

I cooked this(below) yesterday and baobei being my lab rat to taste it .

1 egg

1 hotdog

2 crabstick

1 cheese hotdog

butter (preferable)

garlic butter (preferable)

french loaf

Choose any hot dog (chicken,beef, which you like otherwise you will not like the meat) which you desire ,peel the hot dog with a peeler and fry it until its crispy.Trust me , the method might sound weird , but it is certainly damn good.Like me , i peeled the beef hot dog and put in some crab stick which i had sliced up.

Spread the butter onto the pan , i put a little of garlic butter in my egg and scrambled it.Pour at least 3/4 of the egg into the pan carefully and make it come like a round shape spreading the balance of the egg which is on the top to cover up at the sides , like the picture above , make it look like a pizza round.It looks kind of wet then do the next step quickly.

Next sprinkle the meat which you fried onto the egg , be fast , we do not want the egg to be burnt underneath and pour the 1/4 egg which is left on top of the meat , spread the egg to be round by carrying the pan and moving it into a circular movement.

After it is done , cut it into 4 , fold it , spread the garlic butter on the french loaf and take a tooth pick and stick it right from the top to the bottom.See the pic below for better understanding .

I know it looks ugly but my advise is loosen up on the garlic butter.Because mine turned out very salty.

Baobei got her LV from Paris , and i got my formal clothes . XD.

Random

2011-09-03T10:52:00.004+08:00

My obsession with big shirts lately . Have you seen girls especially wearing some over sized shirts with skinny jeans and look fantastic ? Well , thats the look ive been after for . Much more classy and vintage . Pics are taken at Zara , Lot 10 . I have been shopping three days in a row and today...count it as four .

The top which im wearing is a mix and match , singlet and poncho by Zara and jeans by TRF Zara . Got a khakis formal looks trousers from MNG too . Was going on a reasonable price ..RM120.Got myself a Padini Authentic shorts too .

My uncle Douglas passed away on 1st September .Terminal Cancer . Going to pay my last respects to him today . Sigh , there are too much deaths happening in my family from the day my father passed away till this month . Hopefully this is the last death , i am too weak to go through another depressing funeral .

Life is hitting me good , things happen but we have to move on although it hurts everyday living in regret and hatred . Been occupying myself with shopping , eating , movie marathoning .Still gettin the hang of living in PJ. Looks like when Monday comes , ill be sitting in home alone all by myself , hey not bad...

Hmm...got to wake my baobei up in half an hour and ask her to make breakfast for me . Pics will be right up.This was last week's breakfast . LOL . Its yummy ,but i will not tell her , wait she gets all proud

My Victoria Secret Body Mist is coming next week!

*scream*

Are You Afraid Of Commitment? 10 Reasons Why You May Be Unable To Commit

2011-08-29T22:47:00.013+08:00

Many people , mostly they say men have problems with commitments but now days it is not only men but women as well . Things tend to change a lot,dont you think.

First of all , are you afraid of commitments ?Some people don't even know it till the day comes and they get all panic and scared of things that might happen which some are totally ridiculous. Over here , yes i tend to say i am one of the person above who was so willing to be committed to each other (cohabitat) till on that day i got cold feet , i was super scared and was kind of depressed for i was scared that things would not work out , arguments arise , freedom constrained ,etc .

I was on the verge of just running out from the house whenever possible , seeing my partner's face scares me more to even stay a day longer and thinking that my whereabouts are restricted adds on to my depressive mode.It was all in my mind.

So i did a little of research and it was more on someones thinking , mostly too much of thinking that the usual makes them have that sort of fear . Plus they are used be a person who is free from anything , no burdens and so on . So when they have to live side by side with someone , it just scares them and as for like me , it scares me to death about our relationship for i love her but i just need a few more years of air to breath although we will be staying together for 6 months max , feels like 6 years to me now but IT IS ALL ABOUT YOUR THINKING.

From here , i took :

Are You Afraid Of Commitment?

10 Reasons Why You May Be Unable To Commit

By Rose Alexander

http://www.lifescript.com/Soul/Self/Growth/Are_You_Afraid_Of_Commitment.aspx

(illustrated on my own view , just took her 10 main point and turned it to my view)

1. You’ve seen too many breakups.

Yes , this i agree to the end.I tend to see people who live together has become much more argumentative thus effecting their relationship.I do not want to lose my girl like that!

The writer states that if its that so , (parents divorce , grandparents , friends) which some are painful and difficult then it is understandable that you are afraid .

"You may be surprised to learn that in recent years the divorce rate has declined from a high of 52% to about 48%.That means your relationship is more likely to succeed than fail. Instead of focusing on the broken relationships around you, take note of those that are thriving and find out what those couples are doing to stay happy together."-quoted from the original writer.

2. Relatives or close friends enjoy productive single lives.

Nope so far , but my family is the another reproduction of Gene Simmons family just that kids do not belong to Gene . LOL . I don't think my fear comes from seeing people enjoying their single lives , singles do need love too .

But if you are , read the below :

"In the wake of feminism and masculinity, an increase in the number of single-parent households, and a delayed marrying age, many women and men choose to indulge in a fulfilling and productive single life until they marry, if they marry at all. Single women and men have never had more opportunities, especially with higher-paying jobs and career opportunities that did not exist previously."-quoted from the original writer.

3. You’re afraid of personal failure.

For me , i am afraid the failure in myself which i have targeted myself to do will fail with the another focus-my girl , in my vision .My personal fear of failure is that my visions will be clouded with un deciding judgement for the fact i have to please both side of the scale.But since mine is not about marriage , so this is OUT for me .

But , if you think this is , lil piece of advise from the writer as usual :

"Maybe you don’t know how to cook or clean and fear disappointing your partner in these or other ways in marriage. Remember that each person has different strengths and different people value different abilities. Long-term relationships work when people value each other for who they are. You can also take the time to learn new skills and seek advice from wives in successful marriages to give you the confidence to overcome your fear of commitment."-quoted from the original writer

4. You fear disappointment or disillusionment.

For me , since this is touching on marriage issues , this is not for me .But from my view , this "disappointment" is more on regrets where for me , if i married the girl i want , there is no regrets just all my love , focus and aims to make a better life for her.

But if you are afraid of it , then read this little passage which i quoted:

"You could wake up one day to a grumpy, big-bellied fellow that grunts responses rather than courts you in flowery language. He/She also might not pay as much attention to you as he does now, during the courting phase of your relationship. But when that day comes, as it usually does for most couples, remind yourself why you married that person and suppress the thought that your greatest commitment fears have been realized. Remember that honesty and communication can dissipate fears of disillusionment and disappointment and all relationships have ups and downs."-quoted from the original writer.

5. You’ve experienced relationship failure in the past.

Yes for me where failures tend to tighten those bolts and screws which had been open long time ago to a much more emotionless person.Failure after failure , i had make myself much more expressionless and also sometimes without feelings.I tend to secure myself from getting hurt therefore this is one of the fears i have,my main inner demon.

"Rather than look at commitment as a collective behavior, try to view each relationship as individual and unique. Ask yourself why your previous relationship(s) failed and examine what you should do differently in the future. "-quoted by the original writer.

6. You don’t know how to make the relationship last.

I do know but sometimes because of my temper and emotional mood which is sometimes like a graph chart , it ruins everything , plus point of disaster goes to me if i were to not tolerate . Low toleration , low patience =disaster . One of my fears to if living together . And no , i can only tolerate to some certain extend. And i do not think we are the type of couple who talks and solves.We tend to shout and then talk and shout then solve.

"This is why communication between partners is vital. Both of you need to stay in tune with the other to see how things are going and to make any necessary adjustments. If communication breaks down, you won’t know what to do or how to do it."-quote from the original writer.

7. You’re not sure that's the one.

I am pretty sure this is the one as long i don't screw it up with my temper . Temper can be a pretty nasty thing.

"If you have developed a pattern of embarking on long-term relationships without being able to commit permanently, you may need to discuss your commitment issues with a counselor."-quote from the original writer.

8. You don’t want to disappoint family members.

I have no problem in this category .No disappointments.

"Take time to focus on what is best for you instead of the needs of everyone else."quoted from the original writer.

9. You want to stay single to enjoy life’s pleasures.

Still am , not married , skip!

"Do you want to be single the rest of your life? Are you afraid of the responsibilities of marriage? Issues like this need to be confronted to ensure you are evaluating commitment in a healthy way."

" Give yourself time to reflect on the real reasons why you fear commitment in respect to your current lifestyle and future goals."-quoted from the original writer.

10. You believe commitment will diminish the romance in your relationship.

For me it is the totally opposite of this point . Commitment is where it makes you strive to do it for all the ways possible . A natural feeling of self sacrifice(through labour , etc , not dying) for the other half of yours.

"Many older couples claim that the enduring love relationship built over a lifetime is much deeper and more meaningful than the romantic kindling they started with. Let your love grow."-quoted from the original writer.

Motivation in 4 Steps

2011-08-28T22:45:00.005+08:00

Motivation is one of the things we all have but how motivated are we ?

For me , motivation is part and parcel of my daily challenge for i strive to be motivated to make that spark come to life but it seems nothing can light up the spark anymore . Futhermore it depresses me that i keep thinking that i am not motivated enough .

Browsing the AskMen online magazine , i came up to their article of 4 Steps : To get Motivated

Step 1

Commit To A Time Frame To Stay Motivated

This motivational tip especially applies to jobs that should not take more than a couple of hours. This means that you should specify a time frame before you get knee-deep into a particular task. If you’re the type that likes to plan ahead, mark your objective, with its corresponding time frame, on your calendar. Doing this a week or so in advance will help you get motivated as you will be setting a goal that you can look forward to accomplishing. On the other hand, if you’re more spontaneous in nature, say to yourself that you are going to start working on your task now and give it a termination time -- whether it’s accomplished or not. The pride you’ll feel once you do complete the task and knock it off your to-do list should be enough to get you motivated and keep you that way.

During your set time, eliminate all possible distractions that could lead to procrastination -- turn off your cell phone and disable your internet. You can even get some accountability going if you tell your friends that you have reserved some time to complete a specific job. This will help you stay motivated as well, because you don’t want to appear as a failure to your friends. Once your time frame has ended, just as in taking an exam, put your pencil down and walk away. The small window of time that you allot yourself to accomplish the task should naturally get enough adrenaline going to keep you motivated and give you the energy to make it happen.

Step 2

Set A Reward To Stay Motivated

Since you are most likely taking on a very mundane task within a relatively short period of time, you might have to resort to a very basic motivational technique: rewards. Tell yourself that if you get motivated enough to get the job done in your specified time frame, you are going to head to the mall and buy yourself that item you have been wanting. If you are dieting, motivate yourself with the promise of a pizza or a wings-and-beer fest once you are done.

We have two more basic tips to help you get motivatedCertainly, you could cheat and just have the motivation reward without actually getting your job done, but you won’t feel good about your lack of effort. A reward is crucial for positive reinforcement and should motivate you to actually find the energy to put the ball in motion.

Step 3

Stop Thinking To Stay Motivated

Particularly with boring jobs and chores, your brain has a propensity to over think things and suck what little motivation you have right out of you. Being over analytical about such things as getting your paperwork and files in order will only make the task seem magnificently overwhelming and likely preclude you from even taking a single step toward completion. In order to get motivated, focus on small, incremental actions and just start doing something. Initially, it may not be the most effective way to handle the task at hand, but as you work on it, you will learn, adapt and find faster, more efficient ways to really make some dents in what you are trying to accomplish. For example, if you are going toorganize your filing cabinet, which is overflowing with papers, start by just dumping it out on a table. It may seem like a big, daunting mess, but at least it is progress and the act of moving forward will break the inertia.

Step 4

Enjoy Yourself To Stay Motivated

Even big jobs like cleaning the garage do not have to be all work and no play. Certainly, there are other things you would rather be doing, but you can find ways to get motivated and make it fun. Blast some old-school tunes, such as “Nothin’ But a Good Time” by Poison or “Panama” by Van Halen when you feel you have hit a milestone in your task. If you are mopping the floor or actually getting dirty under the hood of your ’71 Chevelle, turning on Styx’s “Blue Collar Man” might be enough to motivate you or to alleviate some of the situation’s monotony. Once you lighten up your brain and embrace what you are doing, you will be able to creatively come up with ways to make it seem more entertaining, which makes the work and time pass more enjoyably and certainly more rapidly.

Motivate, Don’t Deliberate

Armed with the above four steps, you should be primed, pumped and motivated to finally get to whatever it is you have had on your mind. So, shut off your computer, spend the next two hours tackling your objective, and, to help you get motivated, call a friend and tell him that he’s coming over with a six pack and a pizza as soon as you're done.

http://www.askmen.com/money/body_and_mind_150/170b_better_living.html

Yeah , why not try to think this through .Since i have loads of time for tonight to think.

21 in a Blast

2011-08-28T21:42:00.004+08:00

Random pic shots on my birthday ! 21st birthday btw . Gotten loads of food from friends . Everybody is booking me for food . Seriously , i have gained 2kg after a eating frenzy .Roads are pretty quiet for Raya .

I have moved out from my hostel , am ready to spread my wings and fly . Got a job offer as a Marketing Communication Executive at a International Advertising company at Damansara .

I will be currently rotting myself in her home till i get my brand new Saga SFX by mum . Crosses fingers .

Hatred is eating me up .

2011-08-18T18:59:00.002+08:00

Hectic days .

I have just completed my first paper yesterday and i am freaking tired . My mind was blank and i could not answer yesterday's paper .

Well , one thing i learned from my father's death that even how close family members , they often stab you right in the back just for the sake of their profit . Their profit is much more important than grief .Money does wonders.

I hacked into my father's email account and found quite sad stuff , mostly about his feelings but what i have done i cant repair those arguments . Now basically i am living in the world of regret and hatred and this hatred building inside of me is enough to squash anyone to death if that rage suddenly comes up .

Although 20 years , i still have not the complete control on my rage futhermore to cool myself down . Shizo is back , i am sure of that for i keep getting comments but i rather just not express it .

Bought a book named : Kill me once . Super nice book about serial killing , basically u guys know i am so into serial killers . Just its kind of unfair the good guys always win , why cant the bad guys win ? Because it will make the world unbalanced ? Because it is meant to be ? How if there were such things bad guys always win , then we will follow it ? Human , complex minds .

Nothing to be said , just rotting in my room , listening to songs and day dreaming .

Had my first "Buka puasa" treat with Haiyyu's family . Nice .

Its a wrap up.

2011-08-09T21:23:00.005+08:00

Im leaving on a jet plane

This verse came across my mind when i decided that it is time to update my blog since it has been dead since the day my father passed away.

I am calmer and i think i can type what happened.It was 5pm plus , and i was sleeping over at Zach's house when i got a phone call from Francisco my cousin saying that my dad had passed away.Two policeman came to the house and told him the news,leaving a phone number of the police in charge for the case.

I called the policeman,apparently i was shocked and still was in a dreamy mode.He picked up and told me that my father had passed away at 3pm on that day (29th July 2011) , from a heart attack.

Not knowing what to do and how to handle it , i called my girlfriend but she did not pick up her phone.I sent a text message to her telling what happened and called my grandmother , who was at Singapore helping her sister whose husband is in the hospital , passed away on the same day my dad passed away but at 9pm that day.My grandmother just broke down and left me hanging at the end of the line ,not knowing what to do still.

My father friend called suddenly after i put down the phone and asked me how would i want to arrange the funeral.Feeling lost , apparently speechless i just told him i need more time .I called my mother , she was at work so she did not pick up.I called my house and my mum's boyfriend picked it up.I told him everything and he said he will try to help me to get answers for the burial procedure over at Sibu,Sarawak.

That night , i was with my girlfriend , she did not know how to console me.She kept quiet for the night but she tried to make me laugh my making funny faces of he angry bird dolls and keep playing Ipad with me until i fell asleep.

The next day , i woke up by the sound of my phone ringing . My dad's brother called me to ask me whether i wanted to follow him and my grandmother to Sibu.Obviously i said yes and we have to leave on the next day at 7am flight.

Overall at Sibu , i learned plenty of things not by only culture but also about my dad.I have some regrets and also hatred (on someone,whom i blame) . But what is done is done.All i know that i am not the type of person who will let go my regrets and blames easily ,and i do realize that i wont have a pretty good life having all this stuffed up in my chest and being locked up.It is just the one of many ways of how humans handle themselves.

Sasha~

more at : Facebook public photo link

July 29 2011 3PM , the day my father died

2011-07-30T21:49:00.003+08:00

My father passed away on this date and time.

Thank you for your condolence and concern.

He was 46 years old and he had a sudden collapse and pass away on the spot during his working time.

Passed away at Sibu,Sarawak.

Right now , i have too many regrets , unspoken words and guilt surrounding me.

I do not know how am i going to live with myself through all this guilt and regrets.

George Francis Thomas was not exactly the best father but he was the most loving father in unspoken words.

Unplanned Clubbing

2011-07-18T09:25:00.003+08:00

My diet plan.Hehe... skipped dieting for 2 weeks and gained 2kgs.Now its time to lose it again.Love Ellips Hair Vitamin.It really does work.And as for G7 Essence , its just day 2....so lets see after 10 days .The picture below (clubbing) was one the second day..]I do not have mood to blog right now , catch you guys later

I was told there was a free flow beer for RM10 at The Gardens so i thought why not hop along . Picked out few dresses but i thought i was over dressing just for beer ,where obviously i will be all tipsy and stuff . Me and Jeck battled the jam , where Setapak was flooded and we were stuck in the ja from 6pm till 8pm.Reaching there at 8pm , then Jeck mum told us that the place was G6. I was WTF man , i should just wear my dress and heels . T.T

We were asked whether we wanted gin , tequilla , vodka , rum or beer . Jeck's mum choose beer ,Jeck took Vodka and i took Tequilla. Man , regretted because the alcohol was so little that we were like drinking plain orange juice and sprite .Jeck mum went there for the lucky draw and we went there for the free flow obviously . But then , dissapointed that it wasn't free flow . Just a drink each . Luckily we had another drink to redeem and i made a desicion to go with rum this time.The rum was good and finally we had something tasting like alcohol.Jeck mum did not want to drink her beer so we mixed Rum+Calrsberg.Yeah baby , thats the "umph" we are finding for .

Suddenly we thought why not just club over there .Opened beer bucket , danced , smoked , danced with some aunties .... it was fun and now my body aches .

BERSIH 2.0 Semi Live-Cast

2011-07-09T15:23:00.004+08:00

Here's a video to laugh at before we go to the serious parts of this post

LIVE UPDATES From bersih.org

1516 – Thousands at Jalan Hang Tuah and Jalan Hang Jebat, heading for Stadium Merdeka. A Samad Said already there
1506 – Msian Insider reports 5,000 trapped at Tung Shin Hospital in Pudu, police moving in
1503 – Crowd at Stadium Merdeka numbers in the thousands, people continue converging; police begin firing water cannon
1458 – People continue to gather at Stadium Merdeka
1446 – Reports of tear gas being fired into Tung Shin Hospital
1432 – Msian Insider reports that a group of supporters have gathered at Stadium Merdeka
1423 – More tear gas fired, reportedly now also at KLCC and KL Sentral
1412 – Police have charged at Pudu, the crowd is running
1405 – Crowd near Pudu is regrouping despite tear gas and water cannon assaults
1351 – Police fire tear gas near Pudu Station at 100k people
1344 – Water cannons fired at various locations, including Dayabumi, near Menara Maybank, Jalan Tun Perak
1329 – Over 5,000 gather at Menara Maybank, waving Malaysian and state flagshttp://yfrog.com/kjfjszaj
1323 – Thousands marching along Petaling St towards Pudu
1320 The few thousand strong crowd from Pudu Plaza have reached Jalan Bukit Bintang, still heading to stadium
1315 – Malaysiakini reports 1,000 at Masjid Jamek beginning to move to Stadium Merdeka
1306 – Bersih leaders and participants will break for solat Zohor before marching towards Stadium Merdeka
1303 – 3 thousand at Pudu Plaza heading for Stadium Merdeka
1254 – A group on Jalan Sultan encountered a roadblock at Jalan Hang Tuah, and has turned around, still proceeding to venue
1251 – The Petaling Street group is marching towards Pudu now. Malaysian Insider reports a few hundred marching near Mydin on Jalan Tuanku Abdul Rahman
1243 – Two groups of Bersih supporters have merged near petaling street
1242 – FRU moving down Tan Cheng Lock, towards Pudu
1239 – Tear gas fired on Selangor Club Padang, crowds running across Market St bridge and up towards Masjid Jamek
1235 – Msian Insider reports 2,000 people moving towards Dataran Merdeka
1230 – Photo album of the scenes by Malaysiakini photographers
1225 – Many people are seen loitering at the back lanes of Masjid Jamek area. Ready for action.
1220 – Crowd moving toward Menara Mayban. Pic
1152 – 200 people gathered at old KTM Station, a dozen arrested, chaotic scene of scuffles between police and people
1123 – People were beaten by police with rattan at Sogo area.
1120 – So far reports of arrests at Masjid Negara, Masjid Jamek, Sogo, Jln Raja Laut. But generally police are not stopping people from walking into city centre. They are checking for Bersih t-shirts.
1105 – It’s quiet and limited traffic passing by Stadium Merdeka/Jln Maharajalela. Police personnel and trucks spotted at car park.

The frontline.http://twitpic.com/5nd8ta

Huge crowd in front of Pudu. Great Photo by Oliver. yfrog.com/klj48ixj

Jalan Sultan at 1pm. Photo by Oliver yfrog.com/kizaagvj

He dares to march. Photo by @eechia yfrog.com/kjb9ixsj

More coming in at :

http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150234888167815.326584.561742814&l=f6bef291a9

Polices at Jalan TAR

Heavy Police Force near Sogo

FRU and police force at the junction between Dataran Merdeka and Jalan Tun Perak

Situation at Masjid Jamek area so far

3 teenage Malay girls were suspected Bersih supporters,arrested by police

This blog post will be re editted by time to time .Be patient,for....

UPDATES.

Roads were empty , cops all over the place . This picture was taken at Masjid Jamek when i was there.Dissapointed that i arrived late and Bersih was dismissed. Sigh.But one thing,this actually excites me more to go on rallies!Bad or good?

End of the day . From bersih.org

Malaysians show great bravery, the struggle for clean and fair elections continues

Bersih 2.0 is proud that in spite of all the obstacles and hindrances that we were forced to face, Malaysians of all walks of life overcame the oppressive acts of the police to come out peacefully and in incredibly large numbers to show their love for their country and for the principles of justice.

We are nonetheless horrified that several hundred people have been detained, many of them without any justification whatsoever. We particularly condemn the arrests of Dato’ Ambiga Sreenevesan and Maria Chin Abdullah, 2 members of the Bersih 2.0 Steering Committee.

The only violence witnessed was perpetrated by the police, who unleashed immense amounts of tear gas and chemical laced water on innocent members of the public. Police also baton charged those who gathered, injuring many and some very seriously.

In one of the worst acts of violence, police fired tear gas into the compound of Tung Shin Hospital, severely jeopardizing the health not only of the rakyat who had sought refuge there, but the patients there as well. This was one of only various acts of totally unwarranted violence by the police against a rakyat who had exercised their constitutional right to gather peacefully.

We are especially proud of the great discipline and peacefulness shown by all the brave Malaysian who dared to stand up today for what was right.

Today’s gathering is not the end, it is but one more step in the long walk for clean and fair elections in Malaysia. The campaign continues, to work for electoral reform, the release of all detainees, and an end to harassment by the authorities. The struggle continues in the courts of law, the corridors of power, and the hearts of all the rakyat.

Althought our attempt to submit a memorandum to DYMM SPB YDP Agong did not take place today, we will make appropriate arrangements to deliver the memorandum when the police have calmed down.

In the meantime, we call on all Malaysians to continue to work to peacefully achieve clean and fair electoral process in our country. Inspired by their bravery and steadfast commitment, we will never rest in our efforts to work together as one people to bring about a better Malaysia.

Released by,

Steering Committee
Coalition for Clean and Fair Elections (BERSIH 2.0)

The Steering Committee of BERSIH 2.0 comprises
Dato’ Ambiga Sreenevasan (Chairperson), Andrew Khoo, Arul Prakkash, Arumugam K., Dr Farouk Musa, Haris Ibrahim, Liau Kok Fah, Maria Chin Abdullah, Richard Y W Yeoh, Dr Subramaniam Pillay, Dato’ Dr Toh Kin Woon, Dr Wong Chin Huat, Dato’ Yeo Yang Poh dan Zaid Kamaruddin.

WE MADE IT!!!

Buy 1 Free 1 Double Cheeseburger McDonalds + Bersih 2.0

2011-07-08T22:57:00.004+08:00

Get it now, yes Double Cheese Burger buy 1 free 1 from Monday to Wednesday only ... at least it is a much more worth it offer.Hmm....

Before clicking it to be downloaded,mind to click "I love them" left sidebar's advertisement which is running? Thank You.You see , i need money to live too ..Thanks

My views on Bersih 2.0 will be up tomorrow

till then....

Life through my eyes.

2011-07-08T03:29:00.004+08:00

I have seen the worst and i have seen the best.

So far , rumors has it that all roads are going to be closed because of the Bersih rally which is going on this Saturday.I thought of going to have a glimpse of the situation but then i think my education is far much more important for now to jeopardize it.I am so sorry.Sigh.As far i know,things are getting much more hectic and feelings are being bottled up.I just want be locked up in my room and have some personal time from everything , more like a place where there is only me , no other problems and though in my head.Hopefully i get rid of it asap.

THREE YEARS coming~And i do not feel excited.Because of the stress of the final year is loaded at my back.Argh.Birthday?Being 21...hate this figure.

Its a sleepless night , its a hectic day , its a fucked up world.And politicians are trying to make people to go to the rally.Yeah...too bad im still studying otherwise i would like to get a look on it and join the march towards a NEW REVOLUTION.

My face looks to "swollen". T.T

Steamboat buffet and the crabs they have sucks.With Jo and Jamie

Shared with Jamie @ Sunway.

Nandos @KLCC with Bunny

I guess u watched enough.Rap it up.

SHOPPING SEASON~officially going to be broke for i shopped too much.Forever 21 shirt , Hush Puppies jeans and few other clothing. BTW ~ after hardwork and effort i am down to 54Kgs and NOW , my Hush Puppies jeans is in XS size and shirts?I can finally ship for S sizes!!!

AND , i need a new wardrobe cause i need to cupboards to fit all my clothes inside.== . and most of the clothes i don't use anymore , anyone interested??? LOL.

Determination to Destroy Target Enemy.

2011-06-28T21:00:00.002+08:00

Currently i am so busy with my projects that whenever i see the laptop i feel like chucking it away.This time i am so bummed with my Malaysia and International Relations , it is driving me to the wall it seems . I could not find any possible way to make myself relax . It is a really hectic and stressful semester than the usual semesters i have gone through.I am now smoking in my room and my roomate has gone to a concert and i am unable to go because i have my International Relations paper to finish up.

There are books pilling up to be read , there are papers pilling up to be read , and time is running out.So far i thank god although i am still on the between of His existence but i thank him if he really does exist.I do not want to be religious for time being and hopefully maybe never?

These are just normal crap which i am typing just to make myself occupied for i do not know what the heck to type between idealism and realism of a country perspective of Malaysia and South East Asia countries and their foreign policies.TARC should at least give us a Law Diploma or Certificate since they have made many related law courses for us.Sigh , Communication Law , Malaysia Law , International Relations ,Treaty and organization ,United Nations , USSR ,Hitler , and etc.This is just driving me crazy.

Yeah~Most amazing thing which you wont believe, i did not even have time , PERSONAL TIME to go out , have a drink or beer or any sort.All i have been doing is hanging out at cafes and fast food restaurant finishing up my assignment because this crappy internet i have in room sometimes makes me feel like ... screwing up the maxis owner or the satelitte, or whatever shit there is f effecting my line.

Well , some of my classmates turned into arrogant bitches .Espescially the ones who i did nothing wrong to them are really arrogant and they think they are so great but they are not especially a dumb bitch where she does not know nothing and i do not know how the hell she can make it to the finals.I guess she just craps her way out.And people who stepped my tail turns to be fucking snobbish and to me shes still a dumb blond.Prada?Gucci?Coach?Hello, everything of you top to toe are imitation.Your clothes are like the last stone ages and your hair sucks even pubic hair looks better than yours.My hair is better than yours bitch.It cost RM1k plus a year and yours is just a fucking RM10 haircut with your bitchy Herbal Essence (i am so sorry suddenly this brand gets corrupted,but i have nothing againts the brand , just the person) and you think you are so great you bitch.My Toni and Guy is way better than your Herbal Essence and FYI , my hair gets treatment every week.Oh yeah whats up with your pose of a V shape flawless face (practically Photoshop) because in real life, your face is like shit,you have pimples all over , and you are not white at all.You think you're so hot but you look like a prostitute.Oh come'on you are nothing but a spec of dust under my shoe sole.Oh yeah even dust is much more better than you.

Hmmm...everything about you makes me despised,your dont even know your present and past tense and when you graduate and get a job , it wont be by your effort but all are taken for granted because you have connections.You cant never work your way up bitch.NEVER.Because i will be there making myself better than you and every step you take i will take it uch more futher.I will not let you overtake me in any way.

Zai will never lose a battle,and i have to be better than everyone.

The game is ON.I cannot lose.I will make sure my team , my work , my effort will overtake you and i will make sure it does.Even i need to go beyond.I must.

Attention Online Sellers:Free Advertisment

2011-06-20T00:24:00.002+08:00

Hello!
I had a busy week chasing me ,assignments , outing ,shopping and i never have the time to even online unless while i am eating and there is wifi for me to use through my phone.Check into foursquare , tweet and then i will never open my netbook .Sometimes i come back dead tired ,i bathe and lay down on my bed to do my facial mask routine and i just doze off and sleep till the next morning .

Here , i

welcome every online seller to post their advertisement for free.

Yes you heard me . I am finding 20 advertisers to publish their advertisement over my assignment magazine . Although the revenue is quite small , but then : FREE + the magazine will be passed around among classmates , lecturers . you could get some sales and no harm done. All i need is your name , your phone number , your position if possible , website link for me to grab the information and advertise it . Do not worry , i will keep you updated .Email these details to : kairyuzai@yahoo.co.uk . If you need some instant messaging , find me over twitter : littlezai.

Hope to hear from you and nice helping you in expanding your business. Its a win win situation and we are all happy =) .

Father's Day

2011-06-19T21:11:00.002+08:00

Today is fathers day and i do not know how to express it.Well,here it goes .Being a step dad and taking you as if you are his own child,that is something i have to give a super big thumbs up to my step dad.Happy fathers day.We love you.

Random

2011-06-14T08:56:00.005+08:00

Stuff from Taiwan.Yummy sweets!!

My All Star Converse from Taiwan,haven't been released in Malaysia yet .

Beauty !!!

Went shopping and got myself 3 Hush puppies football fan shirt.

Carbonara Spegetti .At Tropicana ,Taman Melati.

Grape with two combination.Nice and recommended.At Tropicana,Taman Melati

My face is clear ! Whee~thats for facial everyday,moisture and so on.But worth it.

My Bio Essence has fullfill its services and it services does not satisfy me for it showed no effect after using for a month.So currently using Nano.It is not bad just that the cell moist whitenor makes my skin feels smarting but it works excellently.I have used My Beauty Diary mask and it works wonders , ecept for the Sake Yeast Mask, my skin can't agree with it.And for everyday facial usage i use Celina Time Up mask which can be used daily and also ZA True White Essence Mask too but it does not satisfy me much.

Simply have nothing to do

Bio Essence set.

It has milk candy smell and i love it . Plus it works . It helps whiten and soften lips.The whiten does work,soften..soso.From Taiwan~Wheee
Giraffe from Pao Sium.Love it.Its on my fridge.Open fridge,remember her .LOL

Kronovix,my bunny bought my stupiak.Muahaha...FORCED her to buy.

Im 56Kg,need to put down 6kgs more.Hmm....

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2011-06-13T18:54:00.007+08:00

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Yong Cheng Sheen RIP

2011-06-04T00:11:00.005+08:00

My friend whom i knew since Certificate in Graphic Design class 2008 had passed away from cancer which she has battling before the day i know her.

She was soft hearted,kind and her mother always made me sandwiches.

I got a call today from Sylvia , around 8pm plus when i was in the bus heading back to Seremban.Sylvia told me the news.

I do not want to say out much over here because i am not even fit to type properly for i am very emotional for now .

We enrolled in Journalism because we wanted the Mass Communication tittle and you wanted to be a paparazzi.I was a aimless person at that time, so i just jumped in the same course as you to accompany you because at that time i know you were sick.You are really seriously silly to cut ur lip with the knife because you want to lick of the jam from the knife .We laughed about it and we agreed there was no special attention will be involved to make yourself feel like a normal person.

OUR MEMORIES 2008-2011

You were there when i needed someone

I was there when you needed someone

You were there when i broke up back in 2009 April

I was there when bastard dumped you , scolded you and also made use of you .

You were there for me to call you "Bitchy"

I was there to for you to call someone "ass"

You hated the word "cancer" and never want to hear it

We kissed in Neway back in 2008(when i was with Ray)

You hugged up when Terry tore down the pictures

We smoked at Block M

We quarrel , fight , and say sorry

You love Maria by Nakashima

You have a wonderful voice when singing Maria

You love to sing

You loved spongebob

We have a love hate on Terry

You backed me up

You put your life on swear so that me and Terry make peace .

You hated chemo

You always had idiot girlfriends.

There are thousands and million more ... but let me get back on that when i am stabilized.Other pictures , i am not allowed to post for once she said , "i will kill you"

Well Bitchy , please come to see me tonight . I love you .

I will dearly miss you .

2011-06-03T00:44:00.002+08:00

I have two chapters down but when can i eventually start on International Relations .

My brain is now like a mind map full of highlights and per click comes out information.

I am feeling senseless , i do not know where i am heading nor walking.

PATHETIC.sigh.

Blogger writer went for brain cleansing.

2011-05-31T02:26:00.002+08:00

Busy for the moment. Loaded with too many of stuff such as assignments , interview and other stuff . . Just came back from I-City and it sucks .

Will update SOON .

BLOGGER NEEDS A DAY OFF.

Coverpage for Magazine .

2011-05-23T03:45:00.002+08:00

I have finally finished a draft sample of my cover page to present in case Ms Yau asks about the progress . Dont worry , this is not the final work . This is just a simple starting point . Everything still looks stiff and not lively yet . It took me few hours to manage the colours , the layout and the fonts , more for experimenting terms . Tommorow going to re adjust , re do and re illustrate and re animate the cover . Once i am done with the cover and satisfied with it , the easy job is on . Man , this must be good , i need to score , we need to score .

Any ideas ? Any comments ?

The inner enemy . Chapter 1 .

2011-05-23T00:40:00.001+08:00

Damien woke up to the sound of his phone ringing. He picked it up.It was Edwin .

“Hello...”

“Hey , we are having a party tonight , wanna join ? There's lots of coke involved and we need your bong to make the party much more livelier.”

“Yeah,text me the details will you.” And Damien ended the call .

Damien tried to get up and he's head is pounding from all the partying last night and all the booze and drugs .He turned to his left and there was a blond chick sleeping next to him . She was naked and sleeping soundly . He woke up slowly not trying to wake her up so that he could get dressed for work . He looked down at the floor and there was another two chicks sleeping . “Oh shit , triple trouble.”he thought to himself .

Damien got dressed and left 100 dollars for each girls as a token of thanks for the one night stand last night . He took the lift down to the hotel lobby and paid the bill for the room to the girl at the reception counter and gave a 50dollar tip and walked out from the hotel where his car was brought to the front by the valet boy . He gave another 50dollar tip to the valet boy and the valet boy thanked him . Damien called he's man asking what was he's job of the day .

“Krovax , so what cases are up for today?”

“Morning , Sir . The whole Miami drug lords needs you to kill the Careista family including the kid too . And he need you to attend his case as he's defendant at court tomorrow at 10am . The Careista family betrayed all the drug lords where they will release information to the court tomorrow and all the drug lords have agreed to hire you to kill the Careista and defend them if their names are revealed . Ten drug lords are involved .They are to have a meeting whenever you are free today”. Krovax said with his thick Russian accent .

“Inform all of them that I will meet them at my house . All nine need not to come . Tell them get 1 of them only to come for if not it will involve suspicion . The other nine we will meet through conference calls”. Damien said and ended he call .

Damien called his firm asking for he's assistant .

“Bunny sugar , who's the judge for the drug lord case?”

“Judge Winskers, and Damien , your dad is looking for you.”

“Please pass me to my father”. Damien said and he heard he's assistant dialing the extension number .

“Hello,Mr Damon speaking”

“Hey dad , what the fuck happened? We are in deep shit with the Careista . They are leaking tomorrow .” Damien said nervously .

“The government is giving them 500 thousand dollars to leak all the names of the drug lords and they will be given full protection too”

“I'll call Winskers, since he's involved . And they hired me to murder the Careista. So I need information on their whereabouts dad. If anything happens take the private jet Mexico , call and ask for Prague and he'll give access to the plane to enter . I'll text Krovax to get all the forged documents ready”.

“Winskers is on the way to the villa . All the drug lords choose him.Be careful.”

The call ended and Damien reached to his villa . Winkers Jonathan , the judge for the case looked scared . Dressed in a black sleek tailor made suit from Armani,standing at 6'3'' with a body built figure , he shook Damien's hand and walked into the villa with Damien . Damien switched on his computer and all the nine drug lords came on the call , some scared , some angry and most of them were calling their connection to meet them somewhere if the murder failed .

“I need details on whereabouts of the Careista”.Damien said while lighting up a cigarette and so did Winskers .

“The Careista are at Four Season Hotel . That's what my inside people told me . The kid , 8 years old is usually with the nanny . At 2pm ,the nanny will bring the kid , Max to his parent's room”.The room is on the second floor , room 203.

“Need a line of coke judge ? You seriously need to calm your nerves”.

“No , I need to keep my nose clean”.

“But judge , I don't kill children”.

Suddenly , every of the drug lord was yelling “why not” for the kid is a Careista too . Damien convinced them that if the kid did not make the decision to expose the information but it was the adults . All of them agreed with Damien's talk and they agreed that the kid should not be killed . At least these hardcore killers cum drug lord too had a little bit of humanity in them . Damien shooked hands with Judge Winskers and asked the judge to leave for he wanted to do his job .

Damien lifted the carpet at the main hall and searched for the name Devour and called the name . Once he called the name , the floor split to two and he went down to the staircase . A self made tunnel made by the top most architects and nobody will know about the secret which Damien made sure if anyone were to step on the floor will not notice any difference with the floors even the sound . Damien took two FN57 semi automatic handgun attached with silencer from the table, three box of 6mm subsonic bullets cartridge , loaded each handgun with 20 rounds and put it into his bag pack.He wore bullet proof jacket which covers he's whole body from he's chest till he's legs . He wore a bullet proof custom made shoe .He picked a sport wear clothing and looked at the mirror seeing whether he looked good. He sat at he's dressing table and took a wig which look like a sleek back hair , and added a pointy mustache at his lip .

Damien drove off to the Four Seasons Hotel and parked at the parking bay not taking any of the valet boy's service to place his car for it will attract attention . He took the handgun out from the bag and put it into he's pocket . He planned everything in his head . Mr Careista first , then the wife . He took the elevator up to the second floor and searched for the room . There were three men at the front of the door . Damien put he's hand into he's pocket and whistled loudly,walking as if he was one of the hotel's visitor . He walked pass by , turned behind and took out he's handguns from he's pocket and pulled the trigger killing 3 of the men before they could take their guns out . Damien wore the gloves he especially brought and knocked on the door and Mr Careista opened the door .

“Goodbye,”Damien said in a happy tone .

Damien shot Mr Careista at the throat , and shot the second shot right at the middle of Mr. Careista's head . He walked to Mrs Careista where she was screaming and he shot her straight at her head .

Damien dragged the 3 men who guarded the door one by one into Mr. & Mrs Careista's room and locked it .Damien looked at he's watch . 1.30pm . He opened his bag pack and took out he's self made kit . He took a forcep putting it deep into each shot wound , pulling out the bullet . He then took the bullet and put it in a bottle and screwed the cap . Damien knew he had to do his work quickly and he filled he bathtub with a strong detergent which he self made to wash out the evidence from the bodies in case one of them had touched him or even he's sweat had drop on them , it will be destroyed . He then put the bodies into the four squared jacuzzi tub.

Suddenly he heard the door knob twist . He hid behind the bathroom door glancing thru the door crack . A woman came in and she screamed . Damien , noticing the danger , grabbed her by the hair and shot her three times at the gut and shot her at her throat without thinking . He carried her and she was heavy . He dragged her and threw her into the jacuzzi tub .

“Fuck , now I have to change”. Damien cursed .

Damien walked out of the bathroom and he saw Max ,Careista's son , standing looking at him straight to the eye .

“Shh...little boy , keep quiet . Lets go get some ice cream”. He tried convincing Max .

Max screamed and Damien had to do something to stop it . Thinking as fast as he could , he shot the child and looked at the child's body . He took the child and carried it putting the lifeless body on the bed . All sorts of mixed feelings suddenly appeared. He took out the chemical which he had put into the bathtub and poured all of it onto the child's body . He wore a jacket over the stained T-shirt he was wearing and he just wore another tracksuit on top of the one he was wearing .

He walked out from the room and lit a cigarette. He's hands were shaking , he's pulse was beating fast and he was very emotional . He walked to the car park and sat in he's car at took at the wig and mustache . He saw his late son lingering in he's mind .

“Daddy , daddy save me . Daddy why are you doing this”.

“Little one , please forgive daddy . Daddy loves you , daddy will pick you up,okay”.

“Daddy I don't want to go, daddy!!!”

Damien shut the limousine's door and Damien's butler drove off . Suddenly a Hummer came from nowhere and crashed the limousine . Damien screamed on top of he's lungs and ran over to the limousine and two men came out from the Hummer . They were shooting towards the limousine and Damien took out he's hand gun and shot one men on he's leg . Another man opened the door and let go a shot . Damien heard and shot the guy but the guy got away . Damien rushed to the limousine door and he's four year old son was lying dead at the backseat . And a letter was left over the backseat . It read :

Blood for Blood

-Grenades.-

Damien hid it in his pocket and cried yelling and calling for help . He remembered the next thing was his wife was filling for a divorce and he became more violent .From that day , he swore on he's son's dead body that he will never kill any children again .

Damien tried controlling he's emotions . He quickly took out a bottle of pills from he's glove box. He took 4 pills of Risperdal and swallowed it. Damien breath in deep and let go with a sigh .He started the engine and begin driving off to Edwin's house .

“Hey!Where's the bong”? Edwin greeted Damien when he opened the door .

“Everything in here dude . I need to take a few lines”. And Damien walked into the apartment.

Damien rolled up a dollar bill and took out his packet of cocaine , using his credit card he made it to four lines . Using the dollar bill , he stuck it to he's nose and inhaled the whole line and lifted his head backwards inhaling the air to make sure he had pushed the cocaine right up to he's mucus membrane and continued doing the same on the other three lines . Damien felt a instant rush of adrenaline and he partied hard trying to forget about the child he killed. When the party slowed down , Damien went to the balcony and lit up a cigarette and all he's whole life flashed in front of his eyes .

He's graduation from Princeton University , his first love , he's marriage , his late son .And it hurt him so much after his son's death for he loved his son so much for when he's son died he went on a rampage killing off all the whole last generation of the Grenades but that could not make him better .

He could not bear the feeling of guilt , the responsibilities , Damien just climbed on top the balcony concrete and sat there . Edwin, although being stoned he realized what Damien was doing and quickly called Damien's father to get over quick . He tried persuading Damien to come down but Damien was letting he's emotions get the best of him.

Mr Damon came in the apartment and he noticed everyone stoned . He asked Edwin where was Damien and ran to the balcony . Mr Damon did no thinking and pulled he's son down from the concrete and Damien, shocked , fell down on the balcony floor . Mr Damon shook Damien .

“You are stoned again . Come , lets go home.”

“I lost...I lost everything in life dad...I...I...killed...”

“Follow me to the car , we will talk about this okay.”

Mr Damon picked Damien on he's shoulder and Damien was too stoned and drunk to even walk . Mr Damon seated Damien in the passenger seat and walked to the driver's seat . Damien , half conscious and his head wobbling side to side whenever the car cornered . Mr Damon took a glance of his son and his heart ached seeing what he had done before made a huge impact in his son life . The loss of his grandson was a hit to him but he tried denying he had feelings of remorse but deep inside it hurt him to see his son hurt badly mentally.

He drove to his house and carried Damien on the shoulder like before , and placed Damien on the bed .He took out the handgun which was in Damien's pocket ,undressed Damien and put on some clean pajamas for Damien like he did for Damien when he was little.

Mr Damon walked to he's room . He took off he's coat and placed it on his chair and Damien handgun at he's desk.He took undressed himself and walked to the bathroom . He turned the shower knob and allowed the water to flow down he's body . Many thoughts ran thru he's mind but he decided to push it aside for it was all feelings from the past and he did not want old memories effect he's mind . He quickly took he's bath and wore he's pajamas . He walked to the guest room where Damien was fast asleep. He took a chair from the corner and placed it beside the bed and sat down . He looked at Damien. He's tears flood down his cheek seeing what Damien had become . Mr Damon fell asleep on the chair .

That night , Damien woke up feeling the side effects of the drugs , which he could not stand and he remembered what he did to Max Careista , he could not control he's mind and searched for he's gun . Walking around the house , with he's head pounding he passed Mr Damon's room and saw he's gun at the desk . He took a memo and pen on he's father's desk and wrote :

Dad ,

It is not your fault I became like this , It was my own judgment and my own decision .

I never blamed you for you raised me well . I cant stand thinking of Joshua after he's death . It impacted me too much . I cant stand seeing Larcia without thinking what I am the cause of our child getting killed . I could not ask more , but to die , to stop thinking of these things . I am sorry dad , I love you .

Damien Krovosky .

Damien left the memo at Mr Damon's desk and walked back to the guest room and sat on the bed . He saw he's father , sleeping at the chair and felt he was useless for he had broke he's old man's heart. He tried pulling the trigger but he could not . He just sat on he's bed staring at the walls . Mr Damon woke up the next day and saw Damien sitting down on the bed staring at the wall .He tried pulling the gun slowly from Damien's grip . Damien just let go of the gun and looked at Mr Damon and cried .All Mr Damon could do was to sit beside Damien letting Damien cry out the pain .

“Son,we have to be strong after everything which happened. Come, take your shower and get dressed. We'll go and have breakfast.”

“Alright.”Damien answered in a light voice.

Mr Damon watched his son walk to the bathroom.

Damien walked to the bathroom , took off his shirt and looked at the mirror . He then picked up the razor to shave , suddenly he looked at the razor for a long time. He broke the razor , taking out the blade. Feeling of having a slight pain to bring him to reality so that he will snap out from what he was feeling he placed the blade at he's wrist and pressed it hard and sliced he's wrist with a fast speed . Blood gushed out from the cut and he felt the pain making himself snap back to himself . As a wake up reminder that life goes on.

Damien was a former self abuser after his son's death . He manage to allow the pain he was feeling out through self injury and it helped him . The scars on he's ribs are replaced with a tattoo of he's son's face. He looked at the blood gushing out from he's arm and took the razor again,this time placing it on he's neck and suddenly he heard a knock on the bathroom door . He's hand let go of the blade and he kept quiet.

“Son , are you done?”Mr Damon asked in a worried voice.

Damien tried ignoring the knock on the door and took a deep breath and re placed the razor on he's neck again trying to focus . Mr Damon opened the bathroom door with his keys and saw Damien standing in front of the mirror holding the razor at his neck and blood dripping from he's arm down to the floor

“Son!Put the blade down now!”

Damien looked at he's father , looking sad and eyes watery . He then did a quick slash across he's chest , a much more deeper cut than he's arm and fell to the floor on he's knees crying . He banged he's head to the floor and shouted . Mr Damon ran towards Damien and looked at Damien's chest . He lifted Damien up and took the tissue at the bathroom and pressed on Damien's chest .

“Why on hell did you do that!Do you think the pain will all just go away!”Mr Damon shouted furiously.

Damien feeling dizzy,tried to walk as he's father carried him on the shoulder holding he's waist so that he does not trip and fall. Putting Damien at the passenger seat , Mr Damon drove as fast as he could worried that Damien might lose much more blood. Reaching the hospital , Mr Damon lifted Damien up from the passenger seat and pulled him towards a doctor . The doctor ,without wasting time called for a stretcher. Mr Damon filled Damien's details and the nurse that Damien was on suicidal watch before and was admitted in a mental institution for schizophrenia and depression. Mr Damon's cellphone rang and he excused himself.

“Yes Judge”

“Case has been dismissed . Cops aren't happy and they are trying to get the names in another way. Tell the others to be careful. Where is Damien?”

“He's at hospital.”Mr Damon said in a sad voice .

“For?”

“Suicide watch . So I will take over he's place for the moment . As leader and in any cases related to us.”

“We will be honored to have you back again Damon . You have always been our leader all along. Not that Damien is not but you are the first leader who protected us so we respect you.”

“Yeah , thank you . If there is anything you know where you can find me. For now I am busy filling up forms. Bye.”

“Alright. Good Bye Damon. Its good to have you back.”

to be continued...

kairyuzai.blogspot.com

Feed that starvation .

2011-05-22T11:31:00.008+08:00

Hey there . I have been down with a flu and my voice sounds pretty sexy.I just got the time to type today because i am free for now , maybe for the next 20 minutes and i have to continue doing my magazine assignment . So far , this assignment is kind of simple , did much more harder projects in Graphic Design . Here's a quick update .

Went for a short trip to Ipoh for 1 1/2 days .
Started classes
Baobei went to Taiwan
Night yamcha 1 weeks straight in a row . While playing table games .
Went Shabu Shabu with cousins .
Disconnected myself from the lives of Jeck and Sam Low .
Did a new resolution/bet with Haiyyu
Cut down on cigarattes from 1 box a day to 1 box for 2-3 days .(1 1/2 days if without yamcha because yamcha can be very boring sometimes)(when start working~cant be guarantied )
Changed to a skin freak because of sunburn during Ipoh
Changed cigarattes to Camel Black .
Went to Post Grad fair at KLCC
Went for Culture , Media and Identity talk at Annexe .
Bought new clothes .
Surveyed prices for my degree part time courses .
shopping.
Being happy for 1 week . =)
Baobei comes back from Taiwan TODAY!

Pictures of Ipoh trip :http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150178870087815.310228.561742814&l=1681863aa

Firstly , i have disconnected myself from Jeck and Sam from any contact sense . If this friend can even do such things , i rather not to be called their friend .So by that , Sam Low :

if you need to lend money , please don't call me anymore . If you want tell me your secret , please don't tell me anymore . From now , you handle all your problem yourself . Nice have friend like you for 5 years but maybe find me when you two break up since you are so scared of her.good bye .

Yesterday Pao Sium called me around 9.30am to go with her to this talk at Annexe . It was about Decolonising the Mind-The Problem with Nationalism by Francis Loh Kok Wah , USM .He was talking about the goverment and how nationalism was not bad . Hopefully i have time next week to catch the next talk .

After that went with Pao Sium for Post Grad fair where she wants to continue her PHd and for me , i can survey some of the courses and fees also . I found out Wawasan Open University is not bad , in pricing terms but they do not have courses which i want . Too bad .After surveying we went to catch a smoke and drinks over Starbucks .

We went for shopping time ! Man , went over to Zara , TopShop , MNG , Fred Perry , French Connection , Seed , PA and ended up purchasing a casual shirt from MNG and also a formal skirt from Seed . While Pao got herself a formal skirt from Zara , and a formal long sleeved shirt from Seed . Went to TopShop and saw this so-so leather jacket but sadly , i have to wait 3 months to purchase the jacket for it is RM910 . Sigh , i will have you in 3 months time if there i cant find something better than you . Next month ill get my Andre Valentino and Massimo Dutti . Hmphhh...

Campwhore

The sleeves :MNG Casual Wear Shirt RM99

Front :MNG CASUAL WEAR SHIRT . RM99

Seed formal Skirt :RM109

Seed formal Skirt : RM109

MNG CASUAL WEAR SHIRT . RM99

Ended up going back at 10pm . Reach to my room , went to bathe , did hair treatment and facial then put on my daily skin care : Bio essence Tanaka White . I have to do facial till my face does not feel pain , it hurts from sunburn . Have any tips for this problem ? Well , i have to get my bath before Pao calls for lunch and then do my magazine assignment . See ya later .

2011-05-15T22:36:00.002+08:00

I am finally cash doomed .

>.<

First , i have fucking gained a fucking 4KG after losing 4KG . Damn fuck man . In 1 month of my school holiday i manage to burst up to a freaking 60KG. Rawr.It was because i did not bother to buy my suppliment pills aka Chitosan ,also my slimming pill Swiss Lab and i did not go to gym for a month . So i had no choice to fork out RM100 for my pills this month . Gudbye money , gudbye fat .And I had no choice to purchase a whole week mask 7*RM7 . Man , all thanks to boring ipoh which caused me sunburn till my skin hurts like hell . So i am masking myself every night . Baobei leaving for taiwan tomorrow . Wahahaha , more stuff for me !!!

Okay , lets calculate what i have bought for myself this month .

St Ives Skin Firming Lotion
Vaseline Healthy White Skin Lightening lotion
Chitosan 1000MG
Swiss T-Max plus
Toni&Guy Rapid Response Leave In Conditioner
Rejoice Straightening Creambath Hair Treatment
Nose Pore Tape
Cellina After Sun and Whitening Mask
Cellina Pore Minimizing Mask
Herbal Gingko Leaf Stretchable Mask
Bio Essence Firming Mask
Bio Essence Tanaka White Trial Kit
Jordan Floss Tape
Scott Emulation Orange .

All a total of RM200 . In one day . Sigh . Its okay , its alright because this is what i need .

Ill state why i need it .

St Ives Skin Firming Lotion

Although gym helps loads but i do not want muscles with sagging skin . So , this lotion is a precaution for myself . A prevention .

Vaseline Healthy White Skin Lightening lotion

I wear socks to sleep so i need lotion to moist my leg from cracking heels . UGLY . And also i have sunburn all over my body , so why not get rid of the sunburn . Yeah right .

Chitosan 1000MG

My dietary supplement which i have to take before every meals . To absorb the fat.

Swiss T-Max plus

My slimming pill to be taken before bedtime.You'll be pooping the next morning . And it works . But you have to take it with sensible diet and exercise or it will never work .

Toni&Guy Rapid Response Leave In Conditioner

I saw this product on Watson's shelf a few months back and decided to try it . It makes your hair easier to comb when its wet but when it dries,it hardens . I used it for 4 days , but i am feeling my being much more dry . Maybe it works after using it for a long time ?

Rejoice Straightening Creambath Hair Treatment

First i choose Rejoice for its the cheapest i could find . RM7 . I used it once so i cant give any comments . I usually dont believe in treatment till i realized than getting screwed by my hairdresser next month , better i try to control the damage before going to her. Yes , my hairdresser does screw me for my split ends .

Watson Nose Pore Tape

Blackheads . Simple as that .

Cellina After Sun and Whitening Mask

Thanks to sunburn . This mask really relieves the sunburn pain i am having .RM7 per piece .

Cellina Pore Minimizing Mask

Damage control . Pores getting out of control .

Herbal Gingko Leaf Whitening Stretchable Mask

Sunburn . Need my whiteness back . At least just give me back a bit of my whiteness !

Bio Essence Firming Mask

Disappointed.I could not feel any difference in this mask.

Bio Essence Tanaka White Trial Kit

Disappointed again . This product does no miracles . I am going to switch to ZA or Clinnique.But Clinnique will cost me a bomb of RM400 .

Jordan Floss Tape

Smokers teeth . Have to floss!

Scott Emulation Orange .

I need the vitamins .

WTF im crapping ? I myself do not know . Good night . Feeling depressed .

SMK Raja Abdullah Bullies . Part 3 .Interview news , action taken, Conclusion .Unfair justice .

2011-05-09T15:21:00.009+08:00

If you do not know what is happening , check out Part 1 and Part 2 of my blog post so that you can catch up with what this post is about :

Part 1 : http://kairyuzai.blogspot.com/2011/05/smk-raja-abdullah-bully.html

Part 2 : http://kairyuzai.blogspot.com/2011/05/smk-raja-abdullah-bullies-part-2-short.html

I am stunned by the decision made by MOE and the school . I feel its unfair and just with sorries the bullies manage to escape ? This is how things are taken "sternly"?

Here are the updates regarding the bullying which had happen at SMK Raja Abdullah , Kepong .

Interviewing the victim (obviously not by me) :

http://mmail.com.my/content/71659-bully-victim-%E2%80%98it-happens-so-often-i-cannot-remember%E2%80%99

I find this article by Tthe Malay Mail much more better than The Star's news . It provided much more information and it able me to solve bits of my curiosity .

The Star , actions taken (obviously not by me):

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/5/9/nation/8644087&sec=nation

This is just a screen shot of mine from the star . You can click the link on top if you want to read it .

And Dr Wee Ka Siong response at 2pm today : http://twitter.com/#!/weekasiongmp

The link which he attached , is the message below . http://tmi.me/9W9Vb

Well , you do the reading and the thinking and let me know whether it is fair for the victim ? For i feel its unfair and i will keep pushing them to give out a much more fair punishment . Suspending for 2 weeks and apologizing for something which you have done is not something right . They should be sent to juvy school or something . Aint FAIR !I am going to dig more dirt on this . The email which i sent to Kementerian Pendidikan (MOE) told me that it will take 7 days to answer me .

So when i get the answer , i will obviously update you guys .Just click it to read it .Okay , i myself can't read it after opening a new tab image . So , i will just copy and paste from my mail to here .

ACKNOWLEDGEMENT RECEIPT

Greetings.

Dear valued customer.

Your reference number :- so sorry i can't reveal it . Please understand my privacy .

Please be informed that we had received your e-mail recently and will respond to your good self within 7 working days.

For further information, please do not hesitate to call us at 03-77237070 and provide us with your reference number which is so sorry i can't reveal it . Please understand my privacy .

Thank you.

Yours truly,

HAFZAITUL NORSIMA BINTI AHMAD SABRI
Customer Service Executive
Customer Service Department
Ministry Of Education

After 3 hours when i published this post , i got a reply from MOE .(I published this post at 3pm . Now its 5.23pm and yes i am adding information . It says :

Greetings.

Dear valued customer.

Your reference number :- so sorry i can't reveal it . Please understand my privacy .

Thank you for your e-mail sent to us dated 7th May 2011.

Referring to your e-mail, please be informed that the Ministry of Education treats bullying issues among school students very seriously.

Therefore, Ministry of Education had taken precautions by issuing a Professional Circular, Surat Pekeliling Ikhtisas Bil. 8/2010 title Garis Panduan Mencegah dan Menangani Perbuatan Buli Dalam Kalangan Murid di Sekolah for schools references.

Furthermore, the bullying case arisen which involve students from Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Raja Abdullah, Kuala Lumpur is acknowledge by Ministry of Education and the investigation has been escalated to the police for further actions. Hence, it is advisable to await the response from the police.

Hopefully the information/answer given is sufficient in serving you better.

If you need further information, please do not hesitate to call us at 03-77237070 and inform us with your reference number which is so sorry i can't reveal it . Please understand my privacy .

Thank you.

Yours truly,

HAFZAITUL NORSIMA BINTI AHMAD SABRI
Customer Service Executive
Customer Service Department
Ministry Of Education

Grr, at least i know there is something being done . Have to check out what is Professional Circular, Surat Pekeliling Ikhtisas Bil. 8/2010 title Garis Panduan Mencegah dan Menangani Perbuatan Buli Dalam Kalangan Murid di Sekolah .

Anyone knows ?

Over here , one of the commenter from my blog provided me with more information about this . You can check her blog out over here :

http://how-ah.blogspot.com/2011/05/smk-raja-abdullah-bully-clip.html

I am going to continue my rebelling till at least the bullies get a heavier punishment .

SMK Raja Abdullah Bullies . Part 2 . Short update .

2011-05-08T13:00:00.006+08:00

If you do not know what had happen , you can read this article published today :

http://thestar.com.my/news/story.asp?file=/2011/5/8/nation/8642038&sec=nation&sms_ss=facebook&at_xt=4dc5fe736c59e1ed,0

and more info on my yesterday's post about this :

http://kairyuzai.blogspot.com/2011/05/smk-raja-abdullah-bully.html

I think you have a clear view by now if you don't know what is going on . And if you know what is going on , here are some little updates too . Here i have the picture of these bullies , i am trying to get their names but the picture when enlarge becomes blurry , but i will try my best .

I even twitted Dr Wee Ka Siong about this , well , this was the second tweet and he replied :

So finally after everyones hardwork of circulating , trying to catch the culprit and so on , the news has been published on the media . The first thing i did when i woke up was not to take off my socks , brush my teeth or wash my face . Instead , i rushed downstairs to grab the newspaper and to see whether the news has been published . And it was there on page 3 .or 4? At The Star . I am pretty happy that more people are getting concerned not only for themselves but also for other people .The first thing i did , i typed to Joshua Foong , the writer for the article about the information i know about . I hope it will help him too .

This twitter-ian retweeted that :

Hello , you are badmouthing but doing nothing other than bad mouthing . If you really think they will not do anything then why don't you take action ? Why don't you file complaints too ? Why don't you stand up too ? Frankly speaking , you too looks like a NO 1 talker but no actions . I also hope that Dr Wee Ka Siong does something and keep he's word because people chose him to be in charge , to do the work . So please put the politic war aside and think of something better like solving crimes and so on than just fighting for votes.

I do not care about elections , i do not care on whose ruling , all i want is the people in charge do something about this .This twitterian seems to BN hating . By the way , i am not voting any party , i am not even going to register for voting till i feel i am ready or unless i feel there must be a must i have to vote . All i want is all Malaysians united , all i care is we take care of each other and with that we are unique .

We are ONE .

SMK Raja Abdullah Bullies .

2011-05-07T21:05:00.006+08:00

From the sign above i guess you have what i am going to talk about . I have come across a video which was pretty disturbing . It was not gruesome , it was more on bullying .After watching too much of bullying videos , i cant just stand to watch anymore . Some action must be taken , something has to be done . If you guys do not know what i am talking about , you can view the video over here .

I am pretty sure that you guys have feelings . And here i hope that you guys will join me to bring this up to the school , to the education ministry (Kementerian Pendidikan) , newspapers , media , or anyone who you can think about not to only help this girl but to prevent and to teach the younger generation that whatever you do there is a price . This victim , the girl will be scarred for life , although she might overcome it but the videos posted online will never be put down because people will download the video and circulate it around and the victim has to live with that . Another thing is , bullying does not make you cool , does not make you have more friends . Trust me . You will just come out one day and realize that what you have done , you could do it for something much more worth .

Because i was feeling a little bit pumped up a few couple hours ago , I wrote to the headmaster of SMK Raja Abdullah and also Kementerian Pendidikan about this . I did not keep a copy of what i have wrote to the education ministry but i have the copy of what i wrote to the headmaster . Look below .

Sir/Madam,

I am Wandee Rach Inta and I have a complaint to make regarding about the students in your school ,SMK Raja Abdullah .

On 7th May 2011 , I have viewed a video consisting students from your school bullying a girl by beating , taunting and also cutting her hair . I believe the students are from your school .

The video has been circulated via Internet ,over Facebook where i viewed it and feel something has to be done on bullying and students who practice bullying.The video : ( http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=3D1955299598976&oid=3D111856892184890&comments ) (please click to view the

video) .

Bullying is not something to turn a blind eye on for it is a serious matter where the victim could be traumatized for life and although she might overcome it but it will scar her forever since it is uploaded online which we all know once it is spread , there is no turning back . I felt something had to be done and i also filled a disciplinary complaint to Kementerian Pendidikan so that they could also look into this .

Lastly , i hope that the students involved will be punished and counselled as this is something we should prevent for our future generation . Where if there is action taken , fear will be implemented to other students to not do so .

Thank You ,

Wandee Rach Inta

So maybe you guys could pass this on . Because if we do nothing to stop this , it will never stop . Think about our future children , the ones whom we love in the future being treated this way . Here , the point is , children know what is right and wrong but they just sometimes think that things which they do , they can get away with it because their parents will be there for them . Sometimes parents are too protective , making the child think they can escape anything . Here , people , again i stress this word : RIGHT AND WRONG . They know what it is , but do they want to do it ?They have to know , THEY SERIOUSLY HAVE TO KNOW that whenver you do wrong , there is always the law to catch you . If we leave this kids scoot free with just a warning , what is there to follow the law when you are able to break it .

Do we want kids just doing it for the coolness ?

Do we want kids locked up because we did not do anything to teach them?

Do we wants kids laughing while someone is being beaten up ?

Do you want your kids to be like them ?

Do you want your kids to be the victim ?

How do you feel being in the victim's shoes ?

Do you feel you should do something for this to be prevented in the future ?

Do something , before its too late .

STOP BULLYING , STOP VIOLENCE .

Here is the bullies facebooks :

http://www.facebook.com/mandy.yaw2 mandy yaw

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001977672050 冬粉

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000530100180&sk=wall Xiiao Yen

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100002177539225 唯爱雪宜

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100001897873115 意大利面

https://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100000917510258 潮流宝呗 (Viki Yap)

One of them (blog) :

http://wwwcherryboom.blogspot.com/

Xunlei Download

2011-05-05T19:02:00.003+08:00

Here i have something to share with you guys . I am here to share one of my download application to you guys .

XUNLEI

password : jackabitch

Click XUNLEI to download the application . Dont worry , not a scam or whatever . Maybe could you click that advertisment blinking on my left sidebar ? I need to live .

I will make the world know who am I

2011-05-04T14:50:00.005+08:00

I am now sitting over Starbucks enjoying my mocha frappacino .

Lets just say ... its not just my type . Especially the chocolate chip , i do not like it . Just finished watching Scream4 and it was funny to me . I was laughing . Surprisingly i was not scared like i am used to . Maybe because it looked too fake and not that scary .As i was typing my blog , they gave me this ! Extra Coffee Mocha Frappacino .This i totally love it!!! Thanks Starbucks .

It seems i have watched everything on cinema for the month of April . This semester seems kind of boring so i am thinking of not skipping the first week . Because i have nothing to do in home !!! So obviously i do not long for another week of holiday , no thank you . I was suppose to go to Singapore but plans cancelled . So i am seriously hoping my Penang trip will work out and Chiu Lin will go so as Chin Kai . Maybe get into the ferry and head off to Langkawi?

I am working on my story , i feel there is something more , something to express in the story but i have ran out of ideas so i seriously need more inspiration you see . Its a restructure of The Death of Damien but instead of dying suddenly , he lives , struggles , built an empire , got touched and maybe became a monk ? If my friend Haiyyu reads about this she might laugh off because i remembered once i told her that how if i became a nun. Don't give me that look , do i look like i could be a nun to you?A nun who drinks , smokes and gamble and flirts and woo girls ? Hahahahaha , what a big joke i would say .

Obviously i will be hotter than this nun . *feels proud*

Now i am facing a dilemma either to be a Clinique , Neutrogena or a Bio Essence customer . Clinique sounds good but it is for acne skin . I have blackheads and oily skin . But i want to look like a SKII if you know what i mean . Owhh Dita~~i have always adored you . Sigh

Sigh , looks like advertisments on radiant , firm , flawless skin has been implanted into my mind . Sigh , human and beauty are two things which cant be separatted. One thing too , i have realised many people have no ideas of their own . They keep repeatting what has been said before from others blogger and no doubt sometimes i do too . When i think about it , it is rather stupid , you are just trending and dont have your own views . But guess that is life . People live in repettion , people are like parrots . I could not think of other ways to chill myself down .

Truthfully , i am pretty scared that i will not survive in the working industry because of not that i do not know how to present myself , it is not that i cant come up with ideas to make the project or assignment happen . All i fear is that i do not know how to do it . It means that how if i am unable to work without directions and guidance ? Since i have always been guided with my group partner . I guess this semester , i have to tell her that whenever i say i do not know how to do something , she have to be hard on me and tell me "You have to." Sometimes , you just need a person to push you so that you can see what are your weakness . Sometimes you have to speak out on what you doubt , not that you are dumb , its just that you are re confirming,like me . I prefer to ask than to keep quiet because i rather be dumb to ask than doing it wrongly . I dislike when someone looks at me down because i have no experience in the working industry , i dislike it because i do not know what to answer or response to them what i can do . So i have to prove to those bloody bastards ~That I , will survive . I will make the world know who am I , and i am the next big thing . I know i can and i will never say i can't . Everything can be solved , all you have to do is push yourself . And for that , happy final year to my Journalism education . I might not have a degree , i might not have the money , but i have the will power to change it to become better and baby , I'll prove the world , that determination is success . And i don't take shortcuts . I want the long way for i will feel everything .

Continue to type my story since i have the inspiration now .

2011-05-01T00:16:00.002+08:00

What is love ?

love is bullshit

love is hurtful

love is war

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God , i want to tell you ....

im trying to have faith in you and trust

but im not buying the worship.

Happy Birthday to my darling bebe Samm .

2011-04-30T23:03:00.005+08:00

What comes in your mind when you see 27 ?

1 05 1984 .

WHO IS IT ???

My darling Samm Samm!!!

if there was three of her , i will die !!!

Happy Birthday Darling ,

Happy Birthday Bebe ,

Happy Birthday Baobei

I love u

and i want to celebrate all your birthday with you till i cant celebrate it anymore (die lo)

Most important is... you are happy .

3rd time celebrating baobei birthday!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY HONEY BUNNY SUGAR BUN AND ALL SPICE.WUU....sounds hot .

Random .

2011-04-28T21:18:00.002+08:00

I am enjoying blasting my ears to Switchfoot and My Chemical Romance . Too bad i could not get Lady Gaga's album yet . I have piled myself up with loads of movies , musics and other loads of things which i have loaded myself for my new semester . Wooo !!! BTW , my fucking baobei is singing K at somewhere (claims to have super max stress but looks like enjoying rather than stress) .

Looking at myself and fuhhh~~~ During my semester holidays ... It is a total boredom since i did not travel anywhere for the holidays . FML . I was suppose to follow Chin Kai to Singapore but in the end did not work out . Penang ? Sigh ... i have to wait for Chiu Lin to come over down to KL . Ipoh ? Jeck and Sam are going on 9th May ~ ngam ngam the time when school re-open . And i am sneezing like shit over here because i am SICK! SFML .

Watched Roomate and loved it . And i cant believe that Love and other drugs are only strating to play in Malaysian cinemas like starting now when the movie is out like since last year . Well , im not going to watch any of the movies i downloaded till new semester is on unless i am really bored with Astro . Not to forget , hostel is now filled with juniors .My mission ? Maybe to kick her out ASAP ? I want my room all by myself still .

I love being gay . I love my LBGT family . I love my identity .

2011-04-25T19:17:00.004+08:00

Currently i am in the extend of exploding myself into smithereens .

My acer netbook is becoming too laggy and i cant stand it . ( Well could be because of all the downloading i have been doing) . I am thinking of getting a Mac after graduation but lets just see how the finance of mine goes . Being at Seremban is great , i have my 3 wonderful close friends around , well at least someone to hang whenever there is anything .

Lets talk business .

BOOT CAMPS FOR SISSIES .

This is something very discriminating . This steals the person's identity . As if you are to reform a group of people on your attitude and behavior . On this , it has taken the toll and this will effect many people . Sissy or not , it is incurable , we are born this way . We accept to keep quiet , we are just sexually attracted to a different gender and who are you to play god ? If this camp really does happen , i swear ... if there was a riot , i will join the riot for we all stand better together . All this crap , just stop it . We dont need anyone to tell us how we should be .

I love being gay . I love my LBGT family . I love my identity .

BTW U FUCKERS ~~GAY does not mean HOMOSEXUAL MAN you dumb ! I hate it when these stupid idiots who lack of research and claims that gay is meant for man . GAY means HOMOSEXUAL AND ALSO CAN BE REFERRED TO MEN . So fuck off .